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once again
maybe it`s age
maybe it`s some new found discovery within myself
but i have just noticed something
since moving to stockholm
i seem to think louder than i did when i lived in varberg
is it the traffic? are people louder? maybe the air is thicker and it requires harder thinking?
maybe i am really getting old and even my brain is getting hard of hearing
i have no idea
just notice that i scream alot when i think
is this a big city thing? or is it me?
i really have no answer....just sorta cool realizing it
not only that...but i have also begun to think

there are about 3000 cds here
most of the stuff you never heard of
me neither for that matter
i really feel that this store is a mission
both for you...and for me
we will do this together
i really want to find the stuff that exists way under the surface
my baba and i were talking and we decided
i should call myself a modern cultural archeologist
i like to dig where others just walk and pass over
i am not proud...ok...a little proud
but mostly i am just happy to have found this proffession
on the way to the store today i passed one of stockholms best cd stores

i have this saying that i am getting tired of quoting....but damnit...it seems to fit pretty often..so alas...i use it again

to be a realist...you must believe i miracles

screw the originator of the quote....i am the one spreading it so let`s give me the cred for now

when i started this store...way back...damn i forget when but way back anyhows...
i was not more or less smart...but without a doubt more stupid
i bought a bunch of cds from a place in denmark. they were sooo nice...the people i bought from
they gave me a 10% discount

i keep thinking about my age. don`t know what i am thinking about it....but i do.
at my age..i don`t know..maybe one should have more to show for all the years one has been on this planet. once again...don`t ask me what is is i should be showing....but i sometmes get the feeling that i am not showing all the things a 51 year old fat bald jew in sweden should be showing.
beginning to see..i will not realize some of the dreams i once had. beginning to think that maybe they weren`t so realizable to begin with

i have this theory....it`s not an earth shattering theory....and it might even be a pretty stupid theory....
but it`s my theory
and i like it
everyone should have their own theory
stupid, earth shattering, banal, wise...makes no difference
a person with a theory is that much closer to being whole
then again,....maybe that person has alot of other holes to fill
but at least they will have a theory
my theory is that as long as i am a heterosexual male
and as long as i am am married to my amazing baba....and believe you me bub....my baba is amazing
i just don`t wanna be a gynekologist