don't come to the store today

i just moved to stockholm a few months ago
lived in varberg on the sw coast for almost 28 years
don't ask why
i will never be able to answer that myself

when i moved to varberg in 1980...i was pretty lonely
in 1981 we bought a dog..edie shmedie are you the eggman
shmidi for short

she was my life
she was as nuts as you would expect a dog owned by me would be

anyhows...shmidi lived a good life
we had no kids...so shimdi was as spoiled as a dog could be
the day channa was born..shmidi seemed to realize that she was a dog and not a person
she took the change wonderfully

.december 23 1993 we had to put her to sleep

i could not live without a dog...so we went out..and we bought us an almost exact copy of shmidi...a new tibetian terrier
we named her mishi

mishi was without a doubt my third child after channa and noah
being honest...the hardest part of the divorce...
the house was easy to leave...
the kids are always with me
but i lost mishi

let's make this short...i feel like crying
channa called yesterday from varberg where mishi lives with my ex
today...november 30 at 3pm they will put mishi to sleep

i am here in the store in stockholm
working when i can
hiding in the back room cryin when i can
wishing i could see mishi one last time
wishing i could hug my kids..who don't know a life without mishi

this is not a good day
come again next week...
today there will be tears in your coffee if you come

i need a hug baba